SCANXIETY

//12.3.22 — scanxiety//

So this word isn’t actually in the dictionary, but just type it in google and you can learn all kinds of information.

My next PET scan is Monday (Dec 5th), exactly 5 months after my last one. I have been feeling well and have no reason to think they will find anything. I’m not really anxious about it, but I have found myself thinking about it several times this week. I’m not scared. I know that if they find something, we will work through a plan and just keep fighting. Cancer has been a unique gift to me this year. Obviously, I don’t like it or want it, but it has changed the way I look at the life I have here on earth. I have felt the strength and peace of God like I never have before. I have truly experienced joy in the storm, and I am thankful for that. 

Many have heard me say that one thing I have learned this year is that I can do hard things. I never really thought I was particularly strong or capable of enduring much physical pain. I give the credit to God answering my prayers to BE my strength during difficult times. I do feel stronger now though. I know that whatever comes my way, I can do hard things. 

We watched The Chosen season 3, episodes 1 & 2 last night. Jesus was speaking to someone (I won’t spoil it!) that wanted to follow him, and he said the words “Are you ready to do hard things?” I gasped, and Ray and I looked at each other. Jesus took my line! Ha! It was such a beautiful reminder that life with HIM is not easy, but possible & rewarding. 

So, Next week we will see what’s next. Maybe 2023 will be boring! HA! I doubt that, but it would be wonderful to embrace a new year with a healthy report. 

To those of you fighting…You can do hard things! Psalm 73:26 has become so special to me this year. My prayer isn’t that God give you strength, but that he BE your strength. 

Psalm 73:26 “My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.”

Kristi Rhoton