Missing my Spleen

// February 28, 2022 // Missing My Spleen – by Kristi //

I love word games. I like to keep my mind busy. I play this game every day. It’s interesting what can make you emotional or anxious. Most the time it just happens- with no preparation. Tonight SPLEEN was the first word I saw. Instantly it reminded me that I no longer have one. I’m still a little confused about what future problems this will create. I’ve honestly never really thought about my spleen or what it does for me. Now that it’s gone, it’s worrisome. I usually don’t go very long during any given day without a reminder of my diagnosis. A glance at a bald head in my reflection, a sneeze that threatens to rip open my incision, a bump against my port, my increasingly dry and itchy skin, a list of medications, a calendar full of dr. appointments…..but tonight it was a word game that sent me on a bit of a mental journey. There are a lot of instances like this in life- We’re doing fine when a memory or realization attacks from the shadows. I guess we just need to embrace it. Be thankful for our experiences and memories that we’ve survived. Be hopeful for the journey to come. Yes, hopeful. That’s what I want to be, to express, to share, to live out.

It’s never been more evident to me that my body is dying, yet I love the promise that I am still being renewed!

“That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Please pray for me as I have my next chemo treatment tomorrow morning. Pray that the port has minimal pain and that my body responds without sickness. My anxiety could use some prayer as well.

Kristi Rhoton

#jointhefight

#kristiswar

20 thoughts on “Missing my Spleen

  1. Keep it going sweet girl! God chooses the ones who will give Him the glory in ALL things,
    Blessings sweet Kristi,
    Patti

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  2. Dear Sweet Kristi,
    I have been continuing to pray for you. I think of you often throughout the day and I hope you know how much Ross and I truly love and care about you and how much we lift you up to our Lord Jesus to heal you. We pray God’s healing power over you as He continues to perform miracles in you. We agree in prayer with you and so many others that have joined together to pray for your healthy body and a long life.
    I pray your chemo goes well tomorrow and you will have more strength and less side effects than you did last time. I love you dear friend and miss you so much! Trusting our God Almighty. In Jesus name!

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  3. I’m sending virtual hugs! And I’m praying for you any time you pop up in my thoughts. Praying for successful treatments and that the time flies by quickly and it is behind you. Praying that you feel God’s comfort in a profound way, that the anxiety would release its grip. Love you!

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  4. Kristi you’re always in our prayers! We love you so much and are looking forward to hearing you tell us “I’m all done with my treatments and the cancer is gone!!!” Until that happens we’re here walking with you in this battle.

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  5. Prayers to our Heavenly Father, the awesome Jehovah Healer. I have been praying for you for some time. Being a member of the “semi-colon club”, I can relate, on a very small level, to some of the challenges you are facing. I love your spirit and you just being you at times. Thanks for being honest so we know to lift you up.
    I met you and Ray when you both were early into your deputation after being approved to the field. I remember talking to you while standing at the back of the sanctuary at Mid-Way Baptist in Raleigh NC. I had already been praying for Ray’s parents for some time and just added you all.
    Journey on sweet lady. I will be watching and praying from my world here.

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  6. We are continuing to ask The Lord to give you peace and healing. We pray that your chemo will go well and no side effects and we pray for your anxiety to lessen! Continue on, sweet warrior!

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